Dying...

I wonder how and why I am still alive.

Catastrophe after catastrophe of relationships

Two- to be precise

But two- too many

My first suffered from Borderline personality disorder

My second suffers from Narcissistic personality disorder

Its killing me everyday

My first atleast had the capacity to love and feel

My second is cold like ice and sharp like shards of glass

Don't know which is worse

With my first I felt like I couldn't breathe
With my second I feel like I don't want to breathe

The pain is unbearable

I am not able to take it anymore....

Will I ever find a way out?


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